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Schizoid Personality Disorder

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Solitude -- My Sanctuary.
Silence -- My Llullaby.
Observation -- My Occupation.
Intelligence -- My Curse.

Solitude
Please, don't invite me to an outing that a normal person would attend in a heartbeat.
I won't hesitate to turn you down, I'm perfectly content being alone, in fact I would much rather be by myself.
It's not that I hate you, in fact I have no feelings about you, I just don't like people.
I can fully focus on my thoughts when I am free of outside distractions, such as the mindless drabble of the masses.
Solitude is My Haven, My Utopia, My Sanctuary.

Silence
Silence is golden.
The world needs a mute button, the noise is suffocating; I can't breath outside.
I yearn for sweet silence, all I want is for a few moments of absolute silence when I unwillingly leave My Sanctuary.
Once I finally get silence, I can't help but smile and allow myself to get lost in nothingness.
Silence is An Aria with no words, A Harmonious Composition, My Llullaby.

Observation
I am not involved in the world, society is merely putting on a play, I am The Observer.
I watch as the people ruin lives or suceed completely, I watch as the drama unfolds.
I stay Silent; I will not ever join in on this neverending act that the actors believe is most important;  I know better.
Of course, one cannot always observe, unfortunatly you perform on stage without realizing what you're doing; You become a marionette for a moment and society the puppeteer.
Observation is what I do Best, My Hobby... No My Occupation.

Intelligence
It's not that I dislike being smart, It's just difficult to carry on an intellegent with the drones of the world that surround me.
It's frustrating when you have to explain what you mean constantly.
I can't just dumb down my words, after years of Observation I couldn't help but pick up peculiar speech patterns that are difficult to follow unless you know what I'm talking about.
The masses seem to only contain the same simple people, I've grown exhausted.
Intelligence is The Glass Wall between me and regular people, The Reason I'm alone, My Curse.

Don't get me wrong, Despite all of this, I am indeed content with my Disorder.
Schizoid personality disorder (SPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency towards a solitary lifestyle, secretiveness, and emotional coldness.
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Kecgirl's avatar
I wish there would be a way I could make my schizoid friend happy - any ideas?